Intellectually I understand

Tonight, I'm synched in with God
When I finally
Decided to get sober really
Over two years
Ago, one of my biggest
Fears was that my trippy God would now be missed

Intellectually I understand
God was with me at my worst and
He is constant
I am constantly
Experiencing God, but

Spirituality
Was my drug trip
that constant conscious contact whenever
I was with my Pi Om sisters and the Deadheads
I was with my God and he spoke loud

No doubt. But tonight, God pulled
the veil back. Not that I have ever
Doubted, but tonight God pulled
A miracle

Even though I could spend all day and every
Night kicking it with my man,
He had a
bunch of homework
Due tonight

and so I left his house to
go home and...?
I prayed earlier and that synchs
me into God's will (I
mean, I don't
think we can ever weaken those links)

But it reminds ME that my
life is not mine
God's running the show
Apparently,

facebook is aligned with the planet Venus
Because it connected me
to someone
I needed to speak with. She's

suffering because of the
Disease. And
it's been so long since I felt that fear
of death for my
self that when I heard her,
I just wanted to pull her back from the edge.

I don't want to lose her. I don't want to
lose anyone, but there's something
especially
painful about
a sister that I shared my

soul and my demons with,
who suffered in
hell with me. I want her to join us
in this fourth dimension of happiness so
I reached my hand out and she received it. And

I pray to God only for the knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out. Bless her, Lord.